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I Hope You Find Something That Makes You Want To Not Hurt Yourself

by Absconding Life

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1.
You say that my hair has started to feel like straw when it used to be so smooth. But you taught me to forgo all compassion.
2.
Forelsket 00:50
Okay, I'll admit that you're painfully cute, and although it's worth tripping over my own intestines to run to you, there is only so much pain I can take.
3.
Sedate Pose 00:40
Is this just the walk in the woods before you put the bullet in my brain? I think I'll kneel down to pick a flower for your hair and strain my flooding eyes wide open so I can stare right into yours as I die. Once bursting bubbles, thick and deep, coloured like Greek waves close to the shore in July, now rusted-over dirt, and cankerous, swollen blood clots.
4.
The agnostic fireman soon became an atheist, and it's often the most bitter that spurn all hope for even the possibility of anything good.
5.
Nie mogę 00:22
I can cut bodies up into p i e c e s, but I can't put you back together. So watch where you stick your inflections.
6.
Rivel 00:13
It doesn’t matter how much you restrict the windows because I will be coming in. And if you shut them too tight, I’ll just break my ribs. That’s all.
7.
It took me no time at all to understand That there are seven days in a week And twelve months in a year, And how spring comes round again Every three-hundred-and-something sleeps It took me a little more time before I fully grasped the lunar cycle And why the summer lengths of 2006 and 2007 varied by about a quarter of an hour, And why a day on Venus Lasts longer than a Venus-year But I still can never work out when you're going to call, and when you're not So I spend my whole life waiting
8.
???
9.
Yeah, can I have your attention please? Due to problems in the Kings Cross area at present, this train will be terminating here. All passengers please use the Jubilee line services. Once again, all passengers please use the Jubilee line services from this station.
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11.
I have a blister on my toe for running to Vancouver in Converses, and it irks me that the curve of that blister is greater than the curve of your lips whenever I see you smile.
12.
I was sitting there quietly waiting for you to speak your turn so I could steal more time to use my eyes to admire you in sparkling skin-tight navy jeans and a black shirt with the top three buttons undone and a fuchsia jumper, and play the part of the impassive listener so interested in what you had to say. But I just like your face and your accent beyond words. And when you say that your mother is fifty-four and still turns heads in the street, I begin to wonder if other people's heads turn to see you along with their hearts and lungs and stomachs and all the parts of the brain responsible for reason, and then continue to revolve like circles are the new straight lines and there are no other forces in the world save the glitched gravity that stops you soaring up to heaven like a holy firework.
13.
I want more tattoos. I want your lips tattooed on the inside of mine. And I bet your metal tongue is knurled for a better grip, just like the inside of your thighs.
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I bet you're also gorgeous in places unbeknownst to anyone who has ever walked the Earth because the freckles that shyly inhabit your back look like city lights viewed from the exosphere, like a silkscreen over the reticent, dyspeptic blood of boiling volcanoes. And I can just imagine every undiscovered constellation hiding beneath your collarbones, waiting to surprise me.

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Featuring angst, angsty angst, and more angst. Written over the course of six months following some moody rainy, night-time wanderings one autumn revisiting old hurts.

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released June 15, 2014

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Absconding Life London, UK

Not-for-profit experimental music project. Any money received by me will go directly to a registered charity of your choice. If none is specified it will go to this month's charity: The Orchid Project.

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P.S. Hello Genevieve, I love you. You are great.
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